Poems
These are a few peoms I've written throughout my school years. I know that most of them are kind of depressing, but that's just because of what I was going through at the time. I hadn't been writing but maybe a year, so I was still a bit new to everything and just experimenting. Hopefully you find some of them interesting and enjoyable because they're about me and different stages of my life. Enjoy.
8-8-04
"Trapped"
And so it fades...
Everything crumbles away,
Leaving only me,
And my stupidity...
It's so dark here,
It's so cold here,
But here myself I've led,
And inside I'm so dead...
And sitting in a puddle,
Of my own tears,
Everthing's so dull,
But me and my fears...
I thought I was free,
From this awful shape,
But unable to leave,
I'll never escape...
Meg A.D.
6-27-04
"Prayer"
i take anotha step,
to stop n look around,
i just need a lil help,
for me to be found...
this world covers me,
im neva able to see,
this world smothers me,
im neva able to breathe...
always lost in a daze,
stumblin towards the lite,
the way locked in a maze,
but ive gotta make it alrite...
i close my eyes n pray,
for an easier, better way,
then i feel a hand take mine,
n i look up, as i stand there cryin...
Meg A.D.
6-18-04
"Abandonment of Hope? "
Part 1
so here i am again,
feelin the same way as b4,
i dunno if we can mend,
or ull walk out the door.
maybe its just too late,
but i dont wanna quit,
maybe its just fate,
and were not meant...
i dunno wat to feel,
w/o u here wit me,
i dunno how to deal,
w/o u close to me.
ill never be able to live,
if ur not rite here,
to u my love i give,
all my heart n tears...
Part 2
i dont want to run,
but nothin makes sense,
this cant be all for us,
after everythin weve said,
after everythin weve done,
how could this be the end?
weve only just started,
n here we are already parted,
it felt as if we were meant to be,
the perfect match, u n me,
we thought the same,
we acted the same,
we even loved the same,
or so i thought...
how can u tell me
tat everythin we shared
was really nothin at all,
n was nothin special?
how can u give up
w/o a fight?
how can u say
its not worth it?
do u really believe
tat theres somethin
more perfect in the world
than wat we had?
if only i knew, rite?
if only i knew...
Meg A.D.
"Hidden"
do i run n forget it all,
or do i stay n fight it off?
they all try to tell me to stop
but they dunno the cause...
how can i deal wit this,
this pain tat neva quits?
i try to put an end to it
but again i neva win...
livin inside of me always,
just out of site everyday...
n no one can see the way
tat i hurt from all this pain...
as im slowly broken by all the lies,
the silent killer rushes by,
flashin its proof thru my eyes.
catchin its glance, u c me die...
Meg A.D.
"Inside Out"
love, let me go n die...
cuz now u just dont care...
u said u did, but prob just lies...
u came...our time it felt so rite,
i gave...my heart n all the nite...
so now u say u dont,
n my all is not enough...
but from this truth tats cold
theres nowhere else to run...
God, the hurt...only He knows...
to feel pushed away, n wanted, no mo'...
do u not know how this makes me feel?
so unwanted n thrown aside,
cuz ur done wit me n ur deal...
forget me then...n live ur life...
here ill die alone,
wonderin wat went wrong
this pain tat hurts soo much,
y do u do it to me?
i just cant take it like u want...
ur not here...but here still u r yet...
i cant love u...cuz me u wont let...
u seem to tell me
to keep it all inside,
so noone else will see
exactly how im dyin...
but everyone knows i lie,
all this love, i try to hide...
so here i will die now...from the inside out...
Meg A.D.
"Vain Struggle"
oh the end...wat a sad, sad site,
nothin more gruesome, than ur own dyin love,
especially one, tat seemed so rite,
n seemed to have all the blessins from up above...
wat to do, oh wat to do,
the world is endin, as we know it,
n the one to save me, i dunno who,
maybe never...n doomed to quit...
is there, oh is there a solution,
now so close, to disaster?
maybe a solve-it-all potion,
but hey...y does it matter?...
look at me, look at me,
who once was so high,
now, will never more be,
for i have lost, wat once was mine...
to the end i go, n go again,
ive been so many times,
even made a few new friends,
but oh, just my reflected, silent mimes...
it just seems everythin is always, always this way,
nothin makes sense, atleast nemore,
no where to turn, w/o another slap in the face,
no one to trust, w/o pain straight from the core...
i thought id learn, n learn it well,
a closed door, the better choice,
but never do i listen, n suffer hell,
again, it leaves my face so moist...
the pain cannot, just cannot compare,
to nethin else, this life throws out,
just to see, somethin once so fair,
turn to wat i always did doubt...
torture me fast, torture me slow,
time cares not, bout wat u say,
here ill be, always waitin, u know,
for tat time, oh for tat day...
but if, if in this world im found,
n wiped away, from all this hate,
by tat soldier, tat hunts around,
then in eternity, foolishly i will wait...
so things must die, n die again,
but not to bring about an end...
only to lenghten the wait n pain,
as if to say, "its all in vain..."
Meg A.D.
"Fear"
i cant take it nemore,
my life, im not even sure
i feel so lost n empty inside
i need ur love, so plz dont hide
n this place is far too cold alone
with out u here, i cant go on
dont leave me standin by myself in the dark
i hear u so near to me callin my heart
i love u so much, more than i even know
dont leave me here, dont leave me alone
wat do i do now tat ur gone
i cant stand to face another dawn
we used to see them together
after everynite of sayin forever
but forevers come n passed,
leavin the echo of "it wont last"
dont leave me standin by myself in the dark
i hear u so near to me callin my heart
i love u so much, more than u even know
plz dont leave me here, dont leave me alone
i tried to make u see, how crazy things would be
but u didnt care, n walked away from here...
so here i stand by myself in the dark,
i call to u, i call to ur heart
i love u too much, more than we both know
but u left me here, u left me alone
u left me here, all alone...
Meg A.D.
"Untitled"
always lookin at life thru a lense, to block out the lite of reality...
it blinds wit just a glance, sends u wishin for an amenity...
would ne1 even care...
one less takin ur air...
turn to face the sun n its all gone...
nothin to worry bout, face the dawn...
keep lookin ahead as the othas fall at ur feet...
u cant let reality sink its way underneath...
dont look back n lose ur mind...
all there is to follow is losin ur life...
if u got ur love n strength...
dont trade it for wat lies beneath...
watch it all end n leave u behind...
but there ull stand till it all u realize...
death comes neway...
makin u pay...
so watch the knife slide n cut thru...
watch the blood spill n cover u...
watch as u fall to the floor...
its too late uve gone thru tat door...
this fear to be alone kills me...
to be alone is death...
n so i die again...
but never enuf to set me free...
Meg A.D.
"A Winter Prayer"
As a gift from up above,
Fall infinite pieces of heaven.
Each one filled with love
And a joy for livin'.
As they glisten and gleam,
Like priceless treasures,
To one it must seem,
They go on forever.
As they rest on the ground,
Silent and serene,
The answered prayers are found,
In the early morning scene.
Though the gift will pass with time,
The memory will rest in the mind.
Meg A.D.
"Awakening Heart"
When I close my eyes,
I see you smiling at me.
Why do you have to be
Everything I have been looking for,
And so much more,
In the blue, blue skies?
I hear your kind words and cry
The tears that are never few.
Why did it have to be you,
That found my heart so scared
Of love and being cared,
From others that have lied?
I wish I could see you,
And hold you close,
And never let you go.
But even if just for a moment,
My still heart would beat again,
Then would I really know love so true.
Meg A.D.
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